6.27.19

Oakville, CA 6.22.19 #capturedoniPhone #lol

Oakville, CA 6.22.19 #capturedoniPhone #lol

Last week, I went up to Napa to perform at a wedding. I spent almost a week in my hometown and it was really an interesting time. Grandpa Joe was on a cruise in Croatia, so I stayed at his place out in the country side. It turned out to be a really quiet and relaxing week. Unlike previous trips home, I struck a really nice balance of solitude and catching up with friends and family. I did some writing, meditating, exercising, cooking, etc. It was really a wonderful week. Definitely, a nice break from Los Angeles.

The wedding took place in Oakville on Saturday. The couple Michael & Val were peers from high school. There were several familiar faces and it was interesting to catch up with people I haven’t spoken with in several years. Michael & Val were really sweet, and I thought they did a great job of creating a relaxed and casual, but very special ceremony and reception. The wedding rehearsal wasn’t very thorough, so there ended up being a few hiccups on my end, but overall they seemed very happy with my performance. The other day, Val followed up with me and sent me a really sweet message which I appreciated.

After Napa, I drove to Santa Barbara and spent a few days with Sarah. Or a day and half rather. We had a nice time together, but I was feeling anxious to get back into the groove down here in L.A.

Driving into L.A. on Tuesday morning, I got a call from my uncle Joe informing me that my aunt had passed away Monday evening. My aunt had been sick for many years. I think the major umbrella issue that led to her declining health was kidney failure. She and I were very close growing up, and as I got older, we began to talk more candidly and she was never shy to tell me she loved me and that she was proud of me. In fact, almost every interaction I’ve had with her as a young adult ended in her kind remarks for me. She was a strong woman who played a big role in my life and I’m deeply saddened that I didn’t get a chance to say goodbye to her. My initial reaction to the news was shock and then guilt. Having just been in Napa, I could have made a bigger effort to see her. Although I stopped by the house and knocked on the door at one point, I didn’t text my uncle or my cousins. I really wish I would have seen her one last time. I haven’t yet shed a tear, but I think that everyone processes differently. Now that I’m writing about this, I feel very emotional. I’m sure it will hit me at some point soon. I will miss her very much. We loved and appreciated each other.

Yesterday, I had an interview at a cool coffee shop in Long Beach and I got the job. At this point, I feel way over qualified especially since the pay isn’t very good, but I’m mostly working there in order to get to know Long Beach and meet more people. Their coffee is delicious, and their team is young and friendly. I’m just glad to be a little busier since I’ve had too much time on my hands in the last few months.

Sarah and I are celebrating five years together tomorrow. So wild how much we’ve changed individually and how much our relationship has evolved over the years. I couldn’t be prouder of us. Her birthday is on July 1 and we’re celebrating by going to Portland and Seattle in about a week and a half!

I’m almost finished mixing my next single. Sarah’s sister may be doing the artwork which I’m excited for. I like the song a lot and I’m looking forward to putting it out there. This year, I’ve learned how to make music for myself without any expectations. I think I’ve talked extensively about this here on the blog, but it’s fulfilling to write something and produce it and share it. Everything beyond making the thing is really just an added bonus that I don’t put too much stock into these days. In other words, I don’t really care if people hear it or like it. But in case they do, I make it available to stream and download. I personally think it’s my best work, but I don’t see it appealing to the masses or anything lol. I also think I have a long road ahead of me when it comes to improving as a writer and musician.

Ashton York