3.7.19

artwork for my EP. photography by Cooper Jacklidge February 2017

artwork for my EP. photography by Cooper Jacklidge February 2017

I spent the day in the studio demo-ing out some songs. It was an okay day. I’m overwhelmed and just frustrated with myself right now. I finished arranging a new tune called your Love is a light and I really like it.

The last few days, I’ve been posting the lyrics of Ellwood EP leading up to its release. The release date is technically 3.8.19, but it went live this evening. So click that link if you’d like. I’m going to say a few things about Ellwood EP. I’m going to say a few things about my father. I’m going to say a few things about Sarah. Then I’m going to post the lyrics to the last song on the EP, Space In Between.

Ellwood was sort of an accident, and to me that’s a special thing. I had these songs that I wasn’t all that serious about, but I knew they were written in the midst of really trying times... and I liked them. One evening in November, after I finished demo-ing a few new songs, I asked the engineer to keep it rolling. I just sang some songs into a few mics. I did three takes of each song. A few days later, I realized that I really loved these recordings. I’m so proud of this EP. I’m proud of myself. I know it’s not an impressive work, and my voice has some really funny moments, and so on, but this is my favorite accomplishment to date. Ellwood EP is more dear to me than any other project I’ve released. It was written in the most uncomfortable season I’ve been through.

Not that anyone is really reading this, but I just wanted to say that Sarah has been an unbelievable companion. We’ve shared so many special moments together. We’ve shared the most difficult times. I could never write down how much she means to me. I have a feeling I’ll be writing songs about her for many moons. Most of the songs on Ellwood were written while our relationship hung in the balance. We went through a lot this last year, mostly because of personal shit I was going through. Anyways, it’s really special to have her on the cover, and to communicate my relationship with her through song is an interesting and fulfilling experience.

The last song on the EP is largely about my dad. This week, I miss him especially. Grief is strange. The last few years of his life strike me as our best times together. I don’t really want to say anymore about him. Here’s the lyrics for Space In Between.

Laying in the sunshine

Why can’t I breathe?

Wishing I was some time

Or space in between


When I open my eyes

I am sixteen

Staring at the firelight

You are with me


“I let you down”

“I let you down”

“I let you down”

“I let you down”


Whispering the secrets

You would reveal

In another season

After I heal


Moonlight on the mountain

Carquinez bridge

Loving where it counted

Blowing your kiss


“I let you down”

“I let you down”

“I let you down”

“I let you down”


It comes around

It comes around

It comes around

It comes around


Laying in the sunshine

Summerland Beach

Wishing I was some time

Or space in between


Ashton York