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mom and kenz at dad’s funeral february 2017. sarah and i talked about my dad for a while last night. we miss him so much.

mom and kenz at dad’s funeral february 2017. sarah and i talked about my dad for a while last night. we miss him so much.

I spent the day in the studio yesterday, which is why I wasn’t able to post on here. I was able to arrange my next single After All, and get a feel for where the song is going. My sister called me about an hour into the session. We talk regularly, but lately we’ve been playing phone tag, so I picked up. She’s moving to the East Coast for her grad program in April, and I’m excited for her. She asked me how I was. I told her that I’m still grieving and hurting a lot. I’m on the other side of some crazy years, but I’m left with so many questions and I feel overwhelmed. I told Kenz how grateful I am for Sarah. No matter what, I get to have a constant variable of love, friendship, and trust. I’m so lucky. I can see myself making music and living my life with Sarah for many years to come.

After that phone call, I had another conversation with a friend who was hanging out at the studio with me. We smoked a bowl and I played him some songs. He said After All felt more somber to him. From then on, the song sort of found a melancholy feel. By the end of the day, I wasn’t sure if the idea was complete shit. But so far, Greg and Sarah really like it, and I do too. Sometimes when songs take unexpected turns, it takes flexibility to roll with the process. Strangely, it takes humility. That’s how I feel anyways. Here’s a clip of what I did yesterday. It’s very poor quality and unfinished, but the idea is there. I’m seriously considering asking a fellow named Joseph to play on it. He is an unbelievable Saxophone player and composer. I think he could add some beautiful layers. But also I don’t know him and he lives in Canada so…

I’m also considering releasing a double single, but more on that next time.

After living in Santa Barbara with Sarah for just over a year, I felt the impulse to move to Los Angeles. Normally, I’m pretty open and detailed about things of this nature, but all I’m going to say is that my move to Los Angeles was really strange and painful. I definitely didn’t expect Sarah to want to continue in our relationship in that transition, but over the past 6 months, she has given me so much of her love, energy, and support. It’s hard to even write about without tearing up. I love her very much.

So I moved to Los Angeles, and while I was working doubles and barely paying rent and sleeping on an air mattress and driving around aimlessly every night and playing open mics, these songs would come my way. They were my way of reflecting on the events of the last few years. I look at some of these songs not as my best work, but rather like journal entries that sound pretty. These songs eventually turned into Ellwood EP, which will be available everywhere March 8.

The first song on Ellwood EP goes like this:

Living in Goleta

Far side of town

Never thought I’d need you

The way I do now


You’re turning onto Ellwood

I’m rolling the weed

There’s things I’ve got  to show you

A new song about Steve


And you like it

You really like it

That means the world to me


And we’re high now

We’re really high now

We gonna watch TV


Take me back

We were the kids

Stuck in the valley

Waiting for this

“I want to be wherever you are”


Goddamn. All the tragedies won.


In the morning I’ll be leaving

Rolling back home

I know you can’t believe it

When I say that I don’t


Want to see the family

Or anyone else

I do it for the money

I do it for us


And it’s dark days

And it’s hard times

Make me feel a way


Yeah you like Drake

But you love Kings

On an Autumn day


Take me back

We were the kids

Stuck in the valley

Waiting for this

“I want to be wherever you are”

Goddamn. All the tragedies won.


Take me back

We were the kids

Four in the morning

Stealing a kiss

“I want to be wherever you”

Goddamn. All the tragedies won.



Ashton York