I am interested in details. I read recently that our current situation in life can be looked at this way: our starting point + our decisions. On an individual level, this struck me as profound, though it is a very simple concept. I started this blog so that I could document the musical aspect of my life on a daily basis, shining light on the every day details and decisions I make. Instagram and FaceBook are highlight reels. (They are also valuable tools.). But I decided that I’d rather document my incremental progress in music with a blog journal, than keep up with social media accounts. I’m also really awful at social media and have no desire to improve in that area. Maybe someday, if I am lucky enough to be able to tour and rely on my songwriting as my main source of income, I’ll have folks to help me run social accounts. But for now, I’ve chosen to focus my energy on songwriting and creating. I figure if the songs are strong and the production is unique and high-quality, the rest will come later.
So here we are. This is blog journal #4, and my music update for the day is this:
I’m feeling a little bit stressed out. Or maybe I just feel a healthy urgency. This week has been incredibly relaxed and I’ve spent a good amount of money enjoying my time with Sarah and her family. Tonight and tomorrow night, I’ll be bussing tables at the restaurant, hopefully making some decent money. I love my job and I’m generally happy to go into work. The Raymond 1886 has proved to be a really stellar place to work, while also providing more opportunity and freedom for musical pursuits. I’m also feeling stressed about my lifestyle, because I have yet to find a groove and really stick with it. What I’d like is to have a set schedule every week where I prioritize healthy eating habits, exercise, work, and lots of time for music. I hope to get into that groove by Monday. The last thing I’m stressed about is the future. I only have twelve months to save money and figure out what next year looks like. Will I go to school? Will I move to another country? Will I be active in the LA music scene by then? These are all things I currently thinking about right this moment.
Musically, I’m mulling over a new idea I wrote yesterday, but also I’m feeling like I need a few days of nothing but songwriting to really focus on lyrics and hash some loose ends out. I have too many ideas that are unfinished, and I’m just continuing to write new pieces everyday.
So I’m a little overwhelmed today, but here is what I have to look forward to in the next week:
-Attending two shows this weekend. (I’ve been really trying to get out more and meet other musicians.).
-Spending all day jamming with a new music friend out in Venice. (Super talented and smart guy, who is pretty well connected around LA and really likes my stuff!).
-Potentially booking some new acoustic shows next month
-Releasing my acoustic EP on all platforms on March 8
-Recording in Oakland in a few weeks
These are the jumbled details you can expect from my blog journal! All in all, I’m feeling grateful for where I am, positive about myself as a musician and writer, and motivated to continue making small steps in the right direction towards health, excellence, and making music. The stress is good for me, it helps me to move forward.